I have got very involved with the Spiritualist Church. By accident, because I didn't ever believe in anything before. In fact after he died I was very, very angry. Very angry with God. I didn't understand how any God that is supposed to be caring could ever, ever do this. Because I am an okay person, you know, I really, really try to be nice to everybody. And he was a really, really nice guy. And I just didn't understand at all. And then I was in the library getting some books on grief and I came across this book by, I think she's called Rita Rogers that's it, and it was about, it was called 'Grieving through Spiritualism'. So it was a sort of mixture of both. And I got this book out and I read it and it was absolutely fantastic. It really, really helped me. So I thought oh this is all right, I will see if I can get a little bit more involved in this. So there is a Spiritualist church just up there actually. Just a little bit up the road. So I have been going there and I have been sort of veering over towards Buddhism. So it has definitely, definitely helped me and it has also sparked an interest in things I had never been interested in before. So…
Had you believed in God before or had any spiritual…?
As a child I was a churchgoer, up until I was about 15 and then you know you sort of give over don't you. And when he was ill, really, really ill I prayed all the time, all the time, constantly I was in the chapel at the hospital and after he died I was just stunned that nobody had listened to me, you know, I thought how can this be. But I am sort of developing now more of an understanding I think.
What kind of understanding has been helpful from a Spiritualist aspect. Has it helped you look at things differently?
I believe now that this earth is a classroom and that we are all here to learn and to evolve from our previous existences and that if you have got a lesson to either teach or learn then you do it and then you go. And that is it really. |
