There is so much choice here in the UK and loneliness. Even in midst of people. Apart from HIV, only HIV. In England there is so much loneliness, people don't have time for people. Even families don't have time, there is too much stress. Trying to meet up, trying to meet up, there is too much stress. In midst of people, even within… if you have an immediate family you could still be lonely. And in Africa we don't have that kind of set up. People keep too much to their self here. People don't care what is happening to their relative or their neighbour. They have… the family tie, there is no family ties in England. There is none.

And I'm really, really, real, really scared because, if anything, if I'm sent back home, I'm just sent back home to die. I don't know if my application will be considered, and new laws keep changing, new things keep changing, and say the Home Office say no, I'd have to go back, there is medication in your country, there is that. 

And another thing, I overstayed my visa. And there was a time I was destitute, I didn't have anywhere to stay. I went to the social service in the area I live, and they said I'm over age.

Well what I, what I find out is… like I keep telling all these support groups, if you're, if you are HIV positive, no matter what your status is, if you have children, they give… there is consideration for people with children, than you be single. That is what I just find out. And they keep saying it's not... but that is the truth. If I have a children, and I'm HIV positive, I would have been able to get something.

And why, and why can't you get any benefits?

Because I go and they told me that… They keep telling me oh yeah, there, there… and I'm fed up with it. I don't have social service… I don't get anything. I'm not bothered about that, I don't want to live on the… apart from the medication, I don't want to live on charity. I don't I… and as the system is... formerly like two years ago, if you're HIV positive Home Office, if you're OK… if you're able to work, they will give you a permit to work. But as it is now, what they are saying is… if you are healthy enough to work, then you can go back to your country of origin and work and pay for your medication. So it's two edged sword.