And then I had my first son. He was about 8 months, no, sorry, he was, he, when I had him, about he was 2 months old, that's when I started working. And my sister took over the looking after him. She had a daughter as well. Nine days between them. And she looked after them while I worked, me and my mum. We brought us wages and put food on the table and everything for them. And we used to take, take it in turns sleeping because there were only three rooms and there was six of us in one house. So we had to wake one person up and say, “Get out of the bed. It's my turn to sleep now.” So it, it carried on to be rough and everything but we got through. And then we got us own association house, me and my husband. And we settled down.
And then after that they told me that I couldn't have no more children. It took about three years to have another child. And I got really down, I got really depressed. Anybody used to talk to me, I used to just snap at them. I used to get up at night and just open the door, just wander off. And my husband had to go looking for me. And I'd be walking the streets not knowing where I were. So he had to bring me back. And then I used to just get really annoyed with my husband. And my husband were getting fed up of me. He were just saying, you know, “I try my best here.” I used to nag at him all the time. And he'll come home and say, “Is the food cooked?” I'll say, “No, it's not cooked,” you know. “Why haven't you cooked owt?” “I can't be bothered.” And I was just getting that way, I couldn't do nothing. So we started arguing.
Then he turned to drink. He turned to drink and every night kept on coming home drunk. Then he started gambling, spending money what we didn't have to spend. So that got me really down. And then his family came on top. His sisters and that. And they started interfering with everything else. So I just told them where the door were. They didn't like it. So me and my husband started arguing again over them. |
