Hi, I wonder if anyone can give me some advice. I am a mum of an 18month old boy and work in a stressful environment treating cancer patients. I work long hours in a pressurised environment. My depression started about 6 months ago and is gradually getting worse. I have hit an all time low this week. On friday afternoon I had a panic attack at work and left a few hours early. Since then I have not been back. I feel so guilty for not going to work so on wed I was all ready to go but could not get up off the kitchen floor I was shaking. I know I need to pull myself together, I know I just need to go in but I struggle to get out of bed and to shower etc I am making my situation worse by not going int work,I feel guilty for letting ppl down. my boss is not understanding. My partner just thinks I need to pull myslef together. My doctor is aware and I am on anti depressents. I have been signed off work until monday. I feel complete despair and just want to disappear, Get on a bus and vanish. My Mum thinks I am being dramatic. I feel so alone and think about hurting myself to get into hospital to escape everything. The only thing keeping me going is my son. Can anyone tell me how they cope and offer me some advice pls??????