But can you share your fears with him or talk to him about things?
Oh he just tells me I'm daft, to stop worrying [laughs] - "I'm alright," he says "there's nothing to worry about." This is [name], he won't talk about the fears, and it's the same I try to talk to him about what we should do you know and..."we can't you know keep on like this when you can't cope with me during the day, what are we going to do?" And he says, "Well we'll get a couple of the helpers, they'll have to come in more often," and I said, "Well when you pass on, into a home, we ought to have some ideas." He said, "Oh you'll manage, you'll manage." You know I said to him, "Well if I have to... if I die early, what are you going to do?" "Oh," he said, "I'll be alright, I'll find... I'll either stay here or I'll go into a home," he said, "I know the family can't do it, [name] is in Italy and [names] with the triplets there's no way they could cope with me and," he said, "I don't think I could stand living with them all the time. I love them coming for the day but," he said "I don't think I could stand actually living with them even if it was possible."
I think it is more on me than him because he honestly, I'm being quite honest, he doesn't worry at all about it. And he doesn't worry about other things very much at all you know. If friends are ill, a friend, my great friend who normally comes on a Monday when [name] is at Rotary who lives in the village she was in a nasty car accident a month ago, this Wednesday. I've been worried sick about her and her granddaughter who was seriously ill after it, she's still under sedation after the operation on the following Sunday, but he doesn't seem to be bothered a bit. |
