Yes, I mean I guess you know, certainly having all this has made me much more aware of you know, that perhaps I'm at greater risk of dying than perhaps other people that I know. And really I don't have any great fear of dying. I am a Christian so, and it's a fairly simple Christian belief that I have but it's very important; I am a practicing Christian. But after I'd had surgery one of the things that I needed to do certainly was to, it made me want to tidy my house up. I felt that okay, this might happen to me, and I need to make life as easy for my husband as I could. I don't want all my old things, like my wedding dress hanging around and him thinking what am I going to do with that or what am I going to do with all those things in the cupboard? So... I didn't do everything at once but I've certainly over the past two years, I've actually gone through the house and got rid of lots of things and put things in order. And said, because I actually manage most things in the house, finances, you know I know where the birth certificates are, the marriage certificate. So it's made me actually put everything in order, much more order, so that he can find them. And we've actually done our will as well, which we hadn't done.
But also I was very keen that my service, when I actually die, that my funeral service would be just how I wanted it, really and I've made that easy for him because I knew he would be dithering and thinking shall I? What would she want? So I've actually had my service arranged, soon after I had surgery really. I've changed it a few times because I hear a new piece of music and I think, you know that would be really good, I'll have that as well! [laughs] And I've actually warned people that it could take all day to bury me because I do love hymns and I do love music so it's going to be a long one! So don't book half a day; you need the whole day! |
