Nothing at the moment. Just hoping that... it won't go away, they've told me it will never, ever, I'll never get my beat properly back, but I think at the moment while I'm on these tablets and everything is going all right as far as I'm concerned. Just carry on. I 'm waiting to see the heart specialist again and see what he has to say, but to be honest, they're not messing about with me and I'm okay, I'm all right. I'm not saying I'm all right, that's wrong, I know I'm not all right, but at the moment things are just plodding along nicely and I've just got used to the idea that I can't do what I used to and that's it.
How long has it taken you to get used to that idea?
Oh it took me a good year, a good year, and I don't think my husband's got used to it yet. He still seems as if he's watching me all the time, as if, 'Are you all right? Be careful. Don't do this'. Obviously, as I said before, with a bad heart it's something that you just have to live with. It's not like, like, I had a new hip, the other one was rotten so I had a new hip, I mean, you're not going to get a new heart, and they're not going to bring my beat back but, there's a lot of people worse off than me, that's all I can say. So while I'm on, just plod along. |
