At first you're too scared, you're too scared, too scared to have sex because you're frightened in case you're going to have a heart attack. You know, your blood pressure's going to get high and have a heart attack, and for me, because I feel depressed and down all the time, I don't feel the slightest bit sexy at all. You know, I just, I've got no confidence or anything so, it's just knocked my sex life out the window completely at the moment.
It's something I do need to address with my doctor because whether it's a physical thing or, or mental thing, you know, I do need to speak. They say if, you know, if you do suffer depression you haven't, and don't fancy sex that you do need to speak to somebody about it because there is supposed to be something wrong if that's the case, so, so, no. For me personally, you're frightened, and now, because I feel depressed and down, I don't feel nice or anything so I don't want to.
That's the way that I feel, I don't want to. So then that creates a bad feeling at home because like my partner obviously feels rejected because I don't want to. But it's not because I don't want to because I don't feel the same way about him; it's how I feel about myself, so. But it's trying to explain that to him. But he doesn't understand that it's not because I don't care for him, it's just I don't really care too much about myself at the moment so that's why. |
