I was always panicking of this immigration thing, that I will be deported if I go back home. What am I going to do? My relatives back home, they are old and the situation back home, it's very, very depressing now. What am I going to do if I am deported? And fortunately I was given discretional leave to remain. That was leave to rem… that was three years to remain in the country. 

And from that time, I start developing more… I, I start being energetic. My, my stress was going down a bit now, because I said, 'Oh, really the, the government is dealing with my case.' 

If they give me this discretional leave to remain, my daughter will have more time to go to school, because she is interested with schooling, so if she, if I am deported back home how is she going to go back to school? Where will I go, where will I go and get the money? Where will I go and live? 

Because all people back home they are told that I am HIV positive, and how my future is going to be like? And I start getting more… I start getting more power. And my, I was self extended really, because I was empowered when I get the discretional leave to remain.