I was always panicking of this immigration thing, that I will be deported if I go back home. What am I going to do? My relatives back home, they are old and the situation back home, it's very, very depressing now. What am I going to do if I am deported? And fortunately I was given discretional leave to remain. That was leave to rem… that was three years to remain in the country. 

And from that time, I start developing more… I, I start being energetic. My, my stress was going down a bit now, because I said, 'Oh, really the, the government is dealing with my case.' 

If they give me this discretional leave to remain, my daughter will have more time to go to school, because she is interested with schooling, so if she, if I am deported back home how is she going to go back to school? Where will I go, where will I go and get the money? Where will I go and live? 

Because all people back home they are told that I am HIV positive, and how my future is going to be like? And I start getting more… I start getting more power. And my, I was self extended really, because I was empowered when I get the discretional leave to remain.

God helped me a lot because every time when I was in my… in the house, or even when I am on the bus sitting, I used, I'm, I, I am always saying, 'God help me and help all the people who are against us.' Because some of them they don't know how the future is like. And God help all those people who are suffering. And God help our children because they will be the leaders of tomorrow. 

So God answered my prayer really. Because the time I saw that my CD4 count is getting up, and I get the discretional leave which other people they have been in this country for years and years, they didn't get this discretional leave. And I am getting more support than other people who are in this country for some years and years, they are not getting this support. 

Really God is helping me, and God is answering my prayers. And I am still keeping alive. 

My daughter is still keeping alive. She is going to school and I am having new friends, those who neglected me I have to pray for them to be having their better future. 

I don't mind what they will be saying against me, but I will keep on praying on for them to have a better life in the future. Yes.

You know our African men most of the times if you tell him that you are HIV positive, he will say, 'Oh so the whole of my life I am going to use the condom!'

So I am telling my partner that I'm using the condom with you every time because you know I am on, on this long treatment of TB medication, I can't have direct sex with you, we will have to use a condom. If I use, if we don't do, we don't do sex using the condom, you will be affected with this TB and he is understanding. 

But if I tell him that I'm HIV positive, he will run away from me. Because he is thinking that in future, when I am cleared from this TB medication we will be doing direct sex. He doesn't know that it's for life. This person, she is HIV positive.