He loved needing someone to be close to him but he wouldn’t allow, he couldn’t allow you to touch him, it was like hugging a little board, he was so stiff all the time, and although he craved me to love him and hug him, he couldn’t actually physically stand me being close to him. So even when he was sick, he would sit like a board on my lap and play with my hair and that is as close he would allow me. I couldn’t put my arms round him. He couldn’t put his arms round me. He couldn’t face me or look me in the eye or anything like that. He was just stiff the whole time. So we got to the point where I would just massage his feet and he could stand that, but that is about all the physical contact he could stand when he was little. The last year or so he started hugging me, like arms round me proper hug, and he is nine now, so it is lovely. But it did take an awful long time before he could stand to do that and that was hard for him.