I mean, does it feel strange to you in some way to be so young yourself and to have all this responsibility?
It did at first. I was a bit overwhelmed at first, because I thought to myself, “I've got her now for eighteen years or longer”, do you know what I mean? “But I'm going to have to look after her. She, she's going to depend on me now for the rest of her life, and am I going to be able to cope with this and things like that?” And that, that's, I think that's what upset me the most, the thought that, I was thinking to myself, “Am I going to be a bad mum? And there's people going to judge me because I'm so young and having a baby and things like that.” But now it doesn't bother me because I've done it for six months now. I've got like the rest of her life to do it, I'm trying my hardest and that's all I can do. I can only do it to the best of my ability.
As most, as most girls probably fret saying, “Oh, no, I can't, I can't do it. I'm scared and I need help off everyone”. You can only do what you can do to the best of your ability. If you, if you feel like you can't do it, then you can't do it. But there's no such word as can't. You've got to have a try, do you know what I mean? And that's what my mum was telling me, “There's no such word as can't, so don't be saying you can't do it. Try. Try and change a nappy, try and make the bottle”, do you know what I mean? But, as my mum said, “You should know.” I should know all this anyway because I used to babysit for my mate and she, I was babysitting from when the twins were my age, the twins were our baby's age. So I had to change their bums and do their nappies. But to me that was different because they weren't mine.
They weren't my responsibility 24/7, they were hers. I'd only mind them now and again, like if she needed to go somewhere like to do shopping or something, I'd mind them. But to me she, she's my responsibility. It's now 24/7 I've got her. But I wouldn't change her for the world. I would not change her for the world. |
