Some people, some people like to take that time off work. But I actually found working in that thing, in that bit of time was the best thing that I could possibly do, because it was the only thing that actually distracted me and it did mean that I had to focus on something else and think about something else. I think if I’d been at home in that bit of time I would have gone completely bonkers, because I wouldn’t have thought about anything all day long and all night long other than whether it had worked or not. And our first treatment cycle didn’t work, it wasn’t successful. And initially I was, I wasn’t too bad about it. I just kind of thought, “Oh, well, it hasn’t worked. That’s it and, you know, get back on with things. 

 

Then it was a few days later that it actually really hit me that, you know, this was our only way of having a baby, this was our last chance. And if this kind of hi-tech thing didn’t work, then maybe nothing would ever work and maybe I’d never be able to have a baby. And I was just, I went through a phase of just being completely devastated. I really couldn’t cope at all. And I think sometimes there’s not enough support during that time. Because after unsuccessful treatment is probably the time you most need counselling and help. And the clinic did say, “Oh, you know, you can come in and talk to us” but they left a gap of a few weeks before I went back. And it was just a really really horrible time actually, really horrible time.