So I had another pessary, and I think this was about 10 o'clock. And they gave me a morphine pca which, I could press the button to give me morphine which would stop the pain when the labour did actually start.
So I got the feeling straight away that we were in a separate room, we were on the gynae ward, we had our own sister who was looking after us and she knew the full story of what had happened, and they'd given me this morphine pump. So I felt, 'well, they don't want me to be in pain, they're looking after me.' And I felt like I was in good hands.
And really throughout the morning she just kept popping in and seeing if we were alright, and she was a really really lovely woman, and she spoke to my husband. And my husband had a magazine and I had a book and we just sat there and waited. And once the pain started I used the morphine. I was a bit frightened really, I didn't know how the feeling would be. And once the pain started I said to my husband, “Do you think I should press the button?” And he said, “Well, I don't know”. And as it started and it got worse I thought, “Well, I don't really want to be in pain.” I was frightened of feeling pain and I didn't really want to go through the whole procedure in agony. So I used the morphine.
And I, we explained to the sister, after reading the ARC booklet myself and my husband decided that we didn't want to see the baby because we were worried what we might see. And we both had a picture in our mind of a little baby, and we were worried that what we saw might affect what picture we had in our mind. So she said that that was fine.
And, as the day progressed she just came in and out and I was quite sleepy with the morphine. So round about 5 o'clock things had progressed and she examined me and she said, “Right, well I don't think it will be very long now”. And she came back in and really quite easily the baby was delivered. And she took the baby away.