He did say at one point that it was very difficult having to stand by someone and see them go through all this turmoil and not actually being able to fix it - that that was sometimes the most difficult thing. And then we had the problems about the baby's remains, and it was one thing after another, and he wanted to be able to put it right for me, he wanted to be able to help, and there was a feeling of helplessness. And actually, that was, in many ways, the worst thing for him.
He did have his own pain about losing the baby, but in many ways it was worse having to stand by and watch the effect it had on me, and, and feel that there was absolutely nothing he could do really. I mean, and he, yeah, he did try hard, he did try, he's actually a very good talker, he is actually very good at talking about things, and when I got very, I did get depressed for quite a lot of months, he did, and he could tell when I was in a you know, a really bad frame of mind, and he'd say, “Would you like to talk?” you know “Would it help to talk?” and, which I did always appreciate him making the offer, but sometimes, like, “No. I don't want to talk,” and I would just go to bed and pull the covers over my head. |
