I don't think I got any sleep at all on the third night, I just stripped him to his nappy, and I just put my curtain round, took my top off and we just cuddled in, skin-to-skin and it's so hot in the hospitals [laughs] that I didn't need to worry about the baby getting cold or, or anything. And the nurses kept coming by and, you know, “You still awake? You still feeding? Have, have you had any sleep?” and I almost felt the, like they were getting me into trouble for being awake all night, I think that was me, I don't think it was, I don't think it was what the nurses intended, but I sort of felt like oh, you know, oh gosh, my baby should be sleeping through, you know, he's three days old [laughs]. But it was lovely, it was so nice and, I've done lots of skin-to-skin ever since then but that was the nicest time I've never managed to get that same, it was just wonderful, yeah.
Just the, recognition that this is it, this is reality now…
[Mm-hm].
…this is your baby…
Yep.
…and this is us and…
Yeah.
…time without interruptions without other people, the quiet of the night.
I think that's because there had been two other girls in the ward, it's a four bed ward, there had been two other girls in the ward, and this, but this was the first night that it was just me and my baby, and it was lovely.
And the next day your milk came in?
The next day I went home and, and it seemed that, that my milk had come in, people had said, “Oh you'll feel your milk coming in it tingles and your, your breasts grow really hard and it's sore” and this and that and, well maybe it was but I'd either didn't know what I was looking for or it wasn't sore or, there was just too many other things going on for me to notice.
So, it was just a natural progression for you in fact it wasn't a momentous event?
No not at all, it was only when he was feeding and I could see milk leaking down his mouth I was thinking, "Okay there's milk there now” [laughs].
Do you think this might be a consequence of having just fed for that whole night that it just all flowed through smoothly?
It could be but I'll never know will I?
Well you might with another [laughs].
Well [laughs] yeah, [mm-hm].
It maybe.
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