Well, at that stage we didn't know whether there were one or two babies - I mean, obviously that I was pregnant - and it was very nerve-racking, really, and there was both the radiographer and also the consultant who had, or the doctor who'd implanted the embryos was present.
And because I've never had a scan - well, I had had one scan before - but I didn't know what she was particularly looking for and they don't, they didn't explain what they were looking for, except of course that it would be, it would be something very tiny.
So it wasn't, I didn't know what, I didn't know, I was waiting for them to tell me and the way that it happened was that the radiographer said, “Yes, there, I can see there's one sac and there's a...”, I think they could see the fetal heart of one already, and she was concentrating on that one.
And then the doctor said to her, “Um, yeah, and if you open your eyes you'll see the other one”. So he was kind of, I mean he was, he just said it in a sort of off-hand kind of way, but that was how we found out that there were twins. And then they showed you where the tiny things were and gave you photo, gave you a copy of the photograph from the scan.
And did it alter your feelings seeing that? Did it look like babies, could you...?
No, they don't, I mean they're absolutely, they're just shadows really, just two pockets, tiny pockets. But the amazing thing was that you could see the heart beat even at six weeks, so you could see this little flickering. And I think it does have the impact of, of making you very conscious of something that's quite difficult to sink in or to imagine it really is the case.
Because obviously there's no other physical symptoms, they're just present. And so I think it does begin a process of relating to yourself as a pregnant person much more sooner than would have happened if you don't have the scans. Because you don't, I mean, you may feel some symptoms, tiredness or beginning to feel unwell, but nothing as positive as actually seeing the tiny creatures and seeing their heartbeats. So yeah, I think it does have a sort of affect on your relat-, begins the bonding process probably. |
