The experience with my last child was very different with the scan, because most of the way through with the hospital appointments, and particularly with one radiologist, it was very negative.
When I actually had the scan, she couldn't see the whole of the way, whole of the backbone and she said - I mean, just, just because of the way the baby was lying. There was no particular thing about that. But she said with anyone else she would have called them back, but she wasn't going to do that with me because I'd already, you know, I'd made a decision not to have anything, so it would be a waste of time and money, and she wasn't going to do it.
And I was really upset. My husband was furious. And of course I spent the next few nights just imagining the worst possible scenario and what there could be, and how we were going to handle it, and all that sort of stuff. And in fact I was so upset I didn't even mention it to my midwife for some time, and when I did she absolutely hit the roof, because she said, “Nobody should be treated like that. It doesn't matter what decision you make. If you make a decision then it's for the hospital and the staff to work within that, not to try and put their judgements onto you.”
And she was wonderful, and I didn't, I couldn't remember who it was, but she was haring off to go and find out who was on duty at that time, send in I think an official complaint. Because she said that should never have happened. But certainly that was a very different experience to go through.
And although, I mean, the midwife was, you know, I ought go back and have another scan, and so on. And I didn't, but it mostly it wasn't a problem, but every now and again I just sort, I would sit there and think, “Oh, well, you know, I wonder if this one's going to be OK, and what we're going to do, how we're going to handle it.” So it gave an extra question mark over the rest of the pregnancy. |
