And then later on I started thinking about it, what it is which has come to me. “Why did it happen to me? What have I done?” And this is a discovery as such. I went right through, I mean you can always say, “Well, you did something in your last incarnation, karmic and all that.” Which no one knows. “Where did it start? What did I do? What was the deficiency in my food?” I couldn't say anything, nothing. And did - now, then another thought came that, “This thing has arrived in my body, something from outside.” I took it in a sense that, we always say something which arrives at home, I take it - the body is a home. Just like this home where I live. I came from outside. This house has given me an abode, in a sense. The same way that disease comes in my body, which is entering in the house of my own. Now we always say, “Whatever enters is a guest, and I am the host.” Now, there's a relationship between the host and the guest. When a host arrives, we have to accept and welcome. Now it's up to the guest to see the same thing. If the guest wants to be accepted happily, then he has to behave well as well. So I thought in that sense I can't do anything with that, what has entered to me. As a guest, I take it. But if we both have to live together happily, we have to behave happily both together.
I feel if I panic about it I'm actually stopping, I'm creating a aggravation between that, and it can happen it may harm me. I don't want to make the guest angry about the thing, that it could do drastic, you know, sort of things. So we want to live together in peace really. That's my philosophy.
Where does that philosophy come from? Is it you personally? Is it a religious position, or?
Well, I have, I mean - well, of course I have, I have heard from Buddhism also. You see in the end the balance, the peacefulness is more important, that - the middle way, it's the middle way. And that middle way is that we both are together happy. There is a, a story behind this, a Chinese story about the bull and the little boy. How you tame, this little boy had to tame the bull. The bull is the more stronger. The disease is more stronger, which I know nothing about. And how to live with a stronger person, which is just one of those things. And it's like, there's so many steps about this, how to deal with a stronger personality, rather than going and bashing also. That doesn't help. So there are ways of tackling it. And the story - I'm not, it's vaguely I know about this story, the tackling the bull, and the, both of them live happily. The boy sits on the, on this ox and he's playing the flute, and the ox is going away. It's so beautiful this story. And I believe in that, that - I mean this disease, I know nothing about. The, how strong, how bad it is doesn't matter to me. Whatever the nature of the disease is, is the nature of the disease. That disease also cannot do anything. That's the nature of it. A snake, we always are afraid of the thing, of the snake. It's our own fear. But the snake will only do what that nature of the snake is. So why should we worry about? This is the way I look at the disease. |
