Yeah. Again, my sister-in-law, the GP, when she saw me about a year ago, she made some suggestions as to what I could do and that was one of the things. I was beginning to feel a bit depressed and she suggested a cognitive behavioural therapist and I did go to that a few times but I didn't think it would help very much.
What sort of things were they doing at the, the therapist?
Oh, just basically talking to me like we are now, a bit like that. But since then, my GP has arranged for me to see a psychologist via the NHS, which is quite impressive because usually it takes ages to see these people and I've seen him a couple of times and he's given me some, well, he did some diagnostic tests first of all which I never got with the CBT specialist and he said it wasn't so much depression it was anxiety more than depression.
What sort of things do you feel anxious about?
Well, anything that's a bit sort of, that is going to require me to you know, to tackle something that I might not be up to, you know, even if I get several things in brown envelopes in the post in the morning, I think, “Oh what on earth this, is this something that I have to cope with”, you know, forms the tax inspector or anything like that, I sort of think “Oh”, you know, “I am going to have trouble coping with this”, although I don't actually seem to have it, I do actually have had forms from the tax inspector and I have managed to reply and write letters to people and that sort of thing, so I am managing to do it but it doesn't alter the fact that I do worry, I do sort of feel concerned about whether I'm going to be able to cope. Whereas before, I used to consider myself a great coper. Also, I was a great planner. I loved planning and I had a great sense of time. I always knew what the time was and how much time I'd got to do things and I worked things out so I didn't have to do anything in a, in a rush. And that's something I did a lot of and enjoyed. I can't do that. I don't do that any more. |
