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She completely lost her speech after her stroke which she said felt like being trapped in a box. She tried to communicate with her eyes but it did not work.
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Okay I had my surgery on the Tuesday I think about well late morning and I think I was awake about three, four in the afternoon. I'm not entirely sure. I remember my husband coming to see me he'd got me some magazines and something to build to keep me entertained for my ten-day stay in hospital.
I don't really remember him leaving but I was quite groggy after the anaesthetic and obviously I'd had quite a major operation and they in the middle of the night I became aware of something not being quite right.
I just remember it being dark, the lights were all out and I couldn't, I tried to, to speak out and I couldn't and I managed to press the call button for the nurse with my left hand and the nurse came to see me and it was like being in a box that I couldn't speak, I couldn't communicate with her. I couldn't move, and basically I, I could understand what she was saying, she started shouting at me trying to get me to talk and I couldn't. They then called a doctor who came and started shouting at me as well and so there was a bit of commotion and I could, I was only trying.
I just felt like I was inside this box looking out and I was just trying to communicate with my eyes and they didn't understand what I was doing, why I wasn't saying anything it wasn't really until the morning that it had become clear that I'd actually had a stroke in the night.
It was scary I've never, I have never felt as scared in my entire life. You don't appreciate how easy it is for people to talk to you and for you to talk back to them until something like that happens.
The stroke was on the left side of my brain and it was fortunately just a very minor one. |
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Her speech therapist explained that she had been left with a communication problem which made it difficult for her to find alternatives for words.
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And you said you wanted to see a speech therapist locally. Can you just go through how long you had to wait and what you do when you go to see her?
Okay, I went to, as I said when I was in hospital, I was seen by the speech therapist on the ward but I live quite a way from the hospital and I wanted to see somebody who was more local to me. Unfortunately she only has one adult clinic a week in my local town and we had to I had to wait about six months from the day of the stroke until I got a, an appointment with her.
So the first time that I saw her I'd already come on a huge amount in my speech and when she first met me she really didn't see anything that was wrong in my speech but I know myself, that I was struggling with certain things.
She described it as quite high level the things that I was still struggling with. But if she was to say, name me five emotions I would probably come up with happy and sad and wouldn't be able to give her another meaning or another word you know, she would say, “Name me five zoo animals or pieces of fruit”, and I would really struggle to name five of those things still because my word dictionary was still quite muddled.
She would ask me to give her an alternative word for, “Give me another word for beautiful”, and I would struggle to find another word that would mean that. So when I'm trying to help my child with his homework I am, you know, learning myself with his English and his literacy it was really helping me, helping him. |
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She initially found it difficult to talk to people particularly strangers. Her mum stayed around after her stroke and dealt with the telephone calls.
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I would find it extremely stressful if I was put in a situation where somebody didn't know me that I had to talk to somebody, even if it was in a shop because they wouldn't understand why I was really struggling with words. Close friends and family knew what had happened but I wouldn't answer the telephone, everybody else around me I would make answer the telephone because I didn't, didn't want to talk to anybody and try to explain what had happened.
So I would, if a friend had called they, all my friends knew that I was going for an operation so you know a few weeks later when they were phoning to see how I was, my mum who had come down the week before I went into surgery and ended up staying for about six weeks I think to help look after me and the children.
She would explain what had happened and then I would then speak to, to people. But I couldn't, I couldn't make any plans for going back to work or anything that was very, very difficult. |
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At the start she could not speak at all and had to go back to being like a child and practicing making word sounds. She also went onto have some help with word finding and writing.
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The speech therapist gave me some, initially some sounds to start trying to make sort of going ooh and ah you know, very basic noises and having to go ttttt but at that point, that was I guess what I needed.
It sounds a bit kind of silly now but when I couldn't say or communicate really in any way at all, I kind of almost had to go back to re-learning a skill that you really take for granted. You think of a child and how they learn to speak and you've been speaking all this time and you're having to go back to basics is very, very strange, quite unnerving and you just don't realise how much you take for granted.
So I was just given various exercises and saw the speech therapist a couple of times on the ward and then had another appointment with her a couple of weeks afterwards. and in those two weeks I'd made quite a remarkable progress and she was, and then she was trying to give me ideas on how I could work on my, my writing and how I need to start.
Basically she was describing to me how my word dictionary had been muddled up but you have, you have all your zoo animals in one section and all your farm animals like under another little category and it's like a big filing cabinet in your head and basically everything had fallen out of my filing cabinet I would say. And that was why I was struggling so much to find words that I needed. |
