I get a lot of admiration from people who say that you know 'I really cope with life well,' but at the end of the day my job does not inspire me. The, I shouldn't think the medication helps but I just find it all like, whilst I'm not saying that I suppress it, I really try and be as positive as possible. But then I suddenly find every now and then I will really get down because you know, and a bit depressed because it just sort of builds up on top of you.
Have you ever thought about having some counselling or life coaching, that kind of thing?
Not really no. I've certainly been thinking about, I mean I've been a bit sort of, things have got on top of me for the last couple of weeks, because I've had a couple of weeks off which is just more rest and recuperation, a couple of visits up to London and things. And then you come back to work and you think, this is a dead end job, you know I've got nothing to look forward to, I've not got a holiday planned, sort of life goes on
But I think those actual sort of, you know the problems, I do sometimes feel a little bit bitter but, like I say, there are other people who have far greater problems. At least I'm able bodied, I think I do try and look on the positive side of life. But like I said I'm a bit like a pressure cooker you know, I just, every now and then I just sink a bit low - sort of more like a culmination of things.