The only other thing that's affected, which is currently going on which has happened recently is that I have, taken a lady friend out for dinner, taken her out on several occasions and my daughter cannot accept that, will not accept that. And that has vastly affected the fantastic relationship between my daughter and I.

I've tried talking to her. She just will not listen. She is not trying to understand in any way, shape or form. Although I can understand, her feelings in that, her mother is still here and I'm taking another lady out, what she will not I think accept or at least try to understand is that I'm still relatively young. She knows I love her mother and my wife dearly, but she is not accepting that taking another lady out on social occasions or for a meal is, she will not accept that's something that I could do or indeed I should do.

And over the last couple of months our relationship has deteriorated through her doing because I've tried desperately hard to talk to her and she won't listen to me. That has affected the relationship with my daughter. As far as I'm concerned it's part of trying to live a normal life.

And I think my daughter is considering that her mum, my wife has, I was going to say only been in the nursing home two and a quarter years, she's been in the nursing home two and a quarter years, and my daughter doesn't understand that it's been, I think the diagnosis was five, six years ago now, that we didn't have a normal - I'm not sure if that's the right word - yeah our marriage changed from what it was some ten years ago. So it isn't just the two and a quarter years my wife has been in the nursing home which I think is what my daughter is seeing. For me it's now some nine, ten years that the marriage with my wife changed.

And I now see it as I think we only have one life, I don't know, I've no evidence otherwise. I'm still not official retiring age. My wife could live another twenty years. I doubt very much if, my wife will probably outlive me and I toyed with the idea for some time that marriage is till death so us part. And I think that my wife as she was is no longer.