You just mentioned you talk to a counsellor.
Yeah.
We'd not talked about that before had we?
No. Sorry. Well that was another thing. At the hospice, despite going to the hospice and you know, being there, it's not a place that its easy to have quiet conversations. I mean, you can go off into a little room and things but quite... honestly there's not a lot of time to go off and have quiet conversations for any length of time.
I do still get quite sort of dazed when I feel really, 'Oooh, woe is me', you know, and my life is ruined and all that sort of thing which I think is quite normal and I have bad patches. They arranged for me to see somebody, a counsellor, who I've been seeing since November, just for an hour a week and I find that very helpful. She tries to pin me down and talk about things that worry me. And like I said, I protect my family and my partner, and you protect yourself as well really and you try not to think about things if you think they're going to be upsetting.
Do you talk about that to the counsellor?
Yeah, yeah.
Do you find that you can go beyond things? You know, cos we were talking earlier and you were saying there comes a point where you don't want to think any more.
Yeah.
So do you think you're getting pushed a bit too far?
She's got a good memory, so if I don't want to talk about anything more she remembers and brings it up later
Do you mind?
No, because sometimes, by mentioning it briefly something that is frightening, by mentioning it even if you don't go into it deeply then, it makes it easier to approach another time. |
