His birthday would have been 7th November. And obviously, automatically you find yourself in an emotional turmoil.

Hmm.

It’s all very jumbled up. It’s not obvious. You don’t think, “Ok, the day is coming now when I’m going to feel sad.” It’s very automatic, it’s very unconscious if you like, it, it creeps up on you and you find yourself feeling down and you don’t know why and then you realise because …

Hmm.

… I often find myself starting to get down and low end of August, September obviously is a bad month because of this, when it happened. The actual day, because it’s connected to 9/11 makes it very strange and I’ve sort of got wrapped up in the 9/11 thing because of this. Because the 9/11 America one happened a year after, exactly a year after my brother’s one. Now my brother loved those twin towers, loved them, New York too and took lots of pictures of them and …

Ah.

… to me there’s this connection and, so the first anniversary was actually the most unusual one in that we were preparing for this overwhelming grief and suddenly this happened, which affected the whole world.

Yes.

You know, such a big even, you know. So it kind of took over a bit. And we got distracted because of that. And it kind of merged and …

Hmm.

… the one and, sort of together type, same thing. It’s very strange.

I can see, it must have had a huge impact on you that day.