And you know, you do keep yourself together at that early time. Because, well I had to, there was no-one else. I could only deal with a lot of the things and I just, I just made up my mind that I was going to keep a hold on reality and I kept a diary [um] just so that I knew what day and date it was so that every morning I wrote down what day it was, what date it was and anything significant, you know, that happened, that I felt I needed to remember or whatever ...
Hmm.
… and that helped me to keep sane, I think.