And I rang up and said 'Can I come and talk to you? Maybe I need some counselling?' And I think we had about four or five sessions. It was really good. It really… Going from feeling like… Because I'm a, you know, I've done some training in counselling so I've done some counselling and I'm thinking like, 'Why am I having this?' But after about the fourth or fifth session I could really start to feel the benefits of having somebody completely outside of my family, friends, people who care, to say 'This is how I really feel'. Because it's very isolating. I mean, it does make you… Well, you know, how do they know? I never ever felt, 'Why me?' That didn't come into it, somehow. But very much feeling sometimes of, like a sadness when I saw people, you know, I had no hair and, whatever…
So it does give you an isolated feeling. Who can you really say, 'I'm scared stiff really, I'm putting this brave face on but inside there's a little me that's petrified', but with the counselling I was able to do that. And get an understanding of why my husband wasn't saying how he felt, you know, that kind of helped me to work through in my mind what was going on there. |
