And for example when my hair started falling out, and of course I was twenty and I wasn't that, I'd never been that bothered about, I'd never been that worried about how I looked, I always thought, “Well I look fine”, you know, quite a lot there, so I rang up my friend and I was, these three boys, and I said, “It's...” He said, “Right”, and this one particular friend who I'm still very close to, said, “Right I'm coming round, I'm coming round this afternoon.” And he came round with this, with these other two and they said, “Right,” and they brought with them a video camera and clippers, and we all shaved our hair off, and they videoed it and it was a joke. And it was, it was so funny and it was so good, and it was like, nothing's different.
And I mean I was really pleased to, I have that, you know, and it was, and then they did it and they even did it like they shaved off the top bit first so we looked like monks, you know, I mean it was ridiculous. And if you think about it you think, “God that's a bit distasteful”, but it wasn't at all because I just thought, “This is great”. And because my hair, and then I never had this half thin half thick thing because I did that quite early on once it started to fall out, I never had that thing where it's kind of like I'm disintegrating, because that's what it feels like, it feels like you're falling apart, and I thought, “I'm not going to let myself feel like I'm falling apart”. So we did that and then it kind of thinned out, but what would happen is my main friend, he would come round and sort of shave off the bits that were growing so that it didn't look too manky.
And I would wear hats sometimes but I would mainly just go out bald, and if people said, “Oh what's wrong with you?” I'd say, “I've got cancer.” And that would shut them up, and I'd be like, “I don't care, you know, if you want to go and be so ridiculous.” And so the hair thing to me I was lucky because it didn't worry me. I think the stage I was at I didn't care, I was twenty, it's the sort of thing that people do when they're twenty, and the sort of people I knew would've, you know, weren't that bothered. But I was also lucky that I had friends like that who would do that with me really. And I did wear a scarf sometimes in the summer so I wouldn't get burnt and stuff, and I got lots of hats, people gave me lots of hats, and that was all quite funny. So that was, I mean that's an example of that kind of positive side of it.