Well when I was diagnosed with osteoporosis, I’d already been on the medication for six months. So yeah I got used to the medication. But I obviously thought that it was going to come to an end because I was convinced that I didn’t have osteoporosis.
When my doctor told me I had, I was totally devastated. I honestly thought my life had come to end because what little I knew about osteoporosis. It just meant lots of broken bones, wheelchair, not being independent, having to be looked after. Maybe ending up in a home.
Not being able to do all the things I’d taken for granted. Like leaping into a car and driving. Walking. Running. Yeah lift, lifting heavy things. I thought I’m not going to be able do this anymore.
And I thought that the fact that I’d broken those two bones so easily, I thought my whole body was so fragile that the slightest knock, not necessarily a fall. I thought the slightest knock or overexertion would break a bone in my back. Or if I bumped into something I’d break a bone in my body.
And I was just terrified. I was terrified. I was very depressed. And I was in tears most of the time. I was desperately, desperately depressed. And this went on I would say for about three months, because I really couldn’t see that I was going to have any quality of life.
Whereas when you are fit you take it all for granted. When this comes it has a hard knock effect. And I just felt that my life was really finished. So this probably went on for three months.
Fortunately with the support and the tremendous support and the information that was accessible, and I was able to read about it, I eventually came to terms with it. And I started then to focus not on osteoporosis only, but I was then able to focus on what I could do about my quality of life.
And that is when I decided that yeah the exercise I have to obviously do exercise everyday. And this is how I came to get involved in the tai chi and Chi Kung. Yeah.
I think because I was able to focus on positive things for this condition, rather than think well this is what I’ve got and just let it take it course. I was able to come to terms with it, more easily.
But I’ll never forget the fear and the depression that I felt at that time. And the fear and depression it’s within you. Other people don’t realise how you feel. And you feel totally isolated at times with your fear.
But I must admit now it’s just over a year since I was diagnosed, and one a daily basis I can almost forget it. I do my exercise. And my, my diet is different.
But I can get on with my life. And my life style has not really changed.
I think what happened at the time it changed in here. And I had to I had to get it sorted out in here before I could sort my body out.