So my husband happened to go for something quite, whatever, to the doctor and I said “well do ask, you know, if the blood test has come back, you know what sort of, you know, what it is or if there's anything?” and I think just in passing, he said well, it's a weak result, a weak, weak positive for rheumatoid arthritis which, which was.
I don't know how I took it really because I don't think I really knew at that point, I very quickly became an expert on rheumatoid arthritis, but at that time I didn't quite know what it was really. So you know I thought, I didn't think I had a lifetime of a disease that I had to you know work, work with. So that's why really it was for me no big deal, it wasn't anything life threatening, I thought it was just something I had picked up that would go, really. So that's why I chose not to, you know go back. It wasn't of any great importance, I didn't think, it was just an intrusion in my life at that time, one I wanted to get rid of, but I didn't think it would be with me for life.
OK, right. So I think what I was faced with, with was potentially a crippling disease and where do I go from here. I chose not to talk to my doctor, who would've been completely happy to have talked to me, but I think I possibly was going to cure myself at that moment of time. So, I think what I did is I looked at alternative therapies to start with and it possibly was, at that time, it wasn't, it took over my life and it was very intrusive, but it wasn't, I was very strong still, I was still very young, I had two children one of 6 and one of 3 and life had to carry on so it wasn't stopping me. |
