Yeah, it affected me quite a bit, I found I couldn't actually, when [son] was born, I couldn't actually go out of the house at one point, because I came across every obstacle possible, I think. I couldn't hold him in one arm to shut the front door so I'd have to carry him to the car with the doors open.
Can't undo, you have to go and unlock the car before you go out of the house because you, you got to do so many journeys to do one simple thing which is walk from your house to your car. But you can't, you have to unlock and open a door in your car, open your, you know, have your front door open, carry your baby out, and then do it all to come back in again.
And I, it just frightened me so much. And then you come across seat clips, baby's seat clips, I couldn't push the buttons because it was push into a hole and I couldn't, I didn't have the strength to push it in to let him out. I was actually sat in my car outside for half an hour one day because I'd put him in the seat and then couldn't get him out. Luckily I had a mobile phone and phoned a friend and she came and got him out of the car. But things like that just frightened me and I stayed in for a long time.
Even the Sainsbury's trolleys, the clips, you can't un, undo them, you can't un you can't push, you haven't got enough push in your fingers to undo the clips to get the children out once they are in there. And I stayed in for a long time and then one of my friends said “This, you've got to stop, you've got to go out”. So I was taken out but they would watch me do the things not do them for me.
They would, and then if I got stuck I always had somebody with me and that's how I learnt to go back out again and eventually started to shop again on my own. And the local stores have got lovely people who now recognise me and as soon as they see me they come and pack for me and they put it in my car and I tend to do shopping when I know someone's home to help me lift it in. And I sort of work round other people now so I'm not completely on my own. |
