Have you ever looked up information about pain at all, about back injuries on the internet, say?
Well I did in the early days, but so much of it is American based anyway and a lot of it is sponsored by Drug Companies so I was not that impressed. The thing that I have noticed about pain is no two people have got the same take on it. I mean my pain isn't the same as somebody else's pain even with a roughly similar injury and I mean pain itself is an intangible, like I can't remember the last bad day. I mean I can remember the date of the last bad day but I can't remember what it felt like. If tomorrow is a good day, I won't remember what today felt like.
I mean you can't remember pain because if you could women would only ever have one baby. It's a thing that everybody's got to deal with as an individual I think, and the same kind of pain means different things to different people and I think I end up dealing with it at the end of the day, it's 95% at least is going to down to the kind of person you are and the way you would deal with anything else.
I mean I admit initially, I did, in a way let it get on top of me, but that's a lot to do with refusing to accept how bad things were, but once I did, it makes it so much easier. Don't get the idea that I like it because I don't but I am, I don't have the power to change it, nobody I know does either so I've got to deal with it.
So, would you say that it was any of the information you came across…?
No, not really. No. It's... I am convinced it's one of those things you can't really generalise about. I mean if I were to put anything on the internet I would say that pain doesn't mean the same thing to two different people. And if it is going to be constant in your life, you, the sooner you can (a) come to terms with that and (b) find ways of dealing with it, the happier you are going to be and the quicker you are going to be happier as well.
I mean, initially I didn't do that good a job but like I say it was tied up with this absolute determination not to accept that things weren't going to get better because I've been in this position before and things have got better but not from this injury they're not. |
